Mourning

C.E. is a co-worker that I have worked with for several years. When we first worked together, we were in different groups but I could tell he was good people. He was smart and honest, unlike most of the others I worked with. When we re-orged, we were put in the same group and it was great getting to work with him. I had an inkling that he may fancy me but I was with The Fuzz so I didn't pay attention to it. When The Fuzz decided to split, C.E. Made it clear that he was interested. I am still getting over The Fuzz. I don't want him back
but I am not ready to trust someone completely again. C.E. Is totally enamored with me and I would be so lucky to have him.

Problems:
There is a great age difference.
He doesn't believe in God (and I do).
He is relocating to CA for a job.
I am screwed up in the head (and heart).

He asked me to move with him. I can't. Or do the long distance thing. I can't. I truly will miss him and do care about him, but I am not sure I like him enough for a serious relationship. What is wrong with me that I have this great guy willing to give me the world and the thought of The Fuzz on a date makes me physically ill.